Tuesday, February 2, 2010
supposingly, i HAVE to go to school today. eyes were wide open upon the text message i received. and guess who? MDM SAPIAH. she called me yesterday, asking me how am i , where am i, why i didnt go to school.....blablabla...she's really worst then my mother. she told me to come to school today but i told am sick and my body's burning hot. and really, im still having this idiotic fever. maybe because ive this eating disorder plus i didnt have any enough sleep. so morning texted her saying i cant make it today and she told me to come tomorrow. she really cares about me huh? but actually, she's nice, understanding but annoying at times. i woke up and see my two BABIes werent in the room. check the whole house, and it was empty, people-less. noone's at home, only me. wanted to get back to sleep but i simply cant . i cant sleep without my BABIes around. so, went to the telephone called dinesh cause he texted me this morning telling me that he'd reached to his camp. so he accompanied me otp since am all alone at home. hung up cause he said he wanna sleep . sometimes i wonder is that his camp or his second home. o.O he keep on telling me not to contact other guys except him, repeatedly. literally repeat that sentence every ending part of our conversation. -.-'
Well, yesterday, went to "skudai paradise" also known as jb, -.-' AGAIN. i wanted to just rest at home , but he wanted me to accompany him to jb since he was all alone. and so, i followed him. furthermore, my head spins more faster every second i stayed at home. i guess i needed fresh air but end up i get dirty-motorbikes-air. pfft! otw to the checkpoint, something bad happened. his front tyre got pancet. i was so scared everytime the bike wobble on the road. but thank god , we arrived to jb safely. phheeeuuuw! reached, saw cherming , the fucking adorable kid was sitting the chair watching a tom and jerry show. the funny part was that, the show was on paused. i dont really knew what was he concentrate on the tv. -.-'' bought new sticker for my helmet. yeay!! now my pooh got new ear and butt. hahah. and additional, he bought a sticker of our names for our helmet. since he peel out my name from his black helmet cause he said that he was too pissed off with me the moment he knew i went to club. lame kn excuse dier? padahal nak kasi pompan yg tompang die pakai helmet tuh. think i stupid ar? nbcb. so, after fixing his tyre, test his bike awhile then head back to singapore.
today's plan is to go make new specs and get a new contacts lenses. i cany stand any longer living each day without seeing the clear view of the world. then maybe just maybe head down "skudai paradise" again cause dinesh need to test his bike once again as his race is the day after.
to you, Dinesh.
"You're everything I thought you never were. And nothing like I thought you could of been. But still you live inside of me, So tell me how is that? You're the only one I wish I could forget. The only one I love to not forgive. And though you break my heart you're the only one. And though there are times when I hate you cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face. And even now while I hate you it pains me to say. I know I'll be there at the end of the day. I don't want a broken heart. And I don't wanna play the broken hearted girl.
Sometimes I feel you not deserving me. And still you're in my heart but you're the only one". =))
Sometimes I feel you not deserving me. And still you're in my heart but you're the only one". =))
And girl,
like you said, he's your boyfie, he cant possibly said that other girls are more attractive than you right? and hey, you know what? im getting bored fighting with you over dinesh.sumpah kao boring la. pfft! i dont know what the hell got between both of you. what is right and what is wrong. who speaks the truth and who dont. blablabla... DO YOU THINK I CARE?whatever it is. you got your boyfie. so? according to dinesh your nothing but just a friend. so? what more you want? you said matan is everything you wanted then WHY THE HELL ARE YOU TRYING HARD TO MAKE ME JEALOUS with dinesh and whatsoever. sungguh taq perlu. mula² ckp kawan pastu nak buat jealous taq menjadi, ape maksod? tol taq ako ckp ko merepek? and the more you try to reply me, the more i get my yawnzz... so, stop the bullshits . and i'll stop mine. and btw, thanks for being a loyal reader here. awww.... *touched* much appreciated girl. =))