Sunday, September 5, 2010
Exhausted!
its 6 september 2010.dear bloggy,
im so freaking exhausted ! feeling like oh hell why are you coming to earth. ive been working real hard and i mean REALLY REALLY workhard. i ,myself starting to wonder who am i? who's the person inside me. im SOOO not the khairiah who was born on 15 january 1991. ouh crap! im so so so tired. but nevertheless, my baking life game i wouldnt even miss a day. bahhahaha. ! even tho im tired . im feeling wanna just climb my window and jump down now. or maybe i should go a little bit higher level. dont think i could die jumping down at this level. haiyaa! why am i talking nonsence. tsk tsk. im going insane real soon. working at airport kinda easy but the timing is real annoying. i mean , the schedule is like 5:30 am till 2:30, 2:30 pm till 11:30 pm. macam sial kn? my body really aching after starting working shift. mak kao, bley mati oh. i dont even have time to slack with friends. but im trying hard to fill my time for them tho.
the annoying part,
boyfriend really is a real pain in the ass. okay he started to reveal his changes this while. i dont know what's on his mind , but i nearly gave up, i know i kept on repeating that but everytime i tried to leave something stops me . you know like gravity? yeah. thats the word to describe my i donoe what. and i told him what's in my mind and that beg him to stop it before i decided to leave (when i actually wont) and yeah it was a success, he apologised like usual and we're like normal but he still hardly meet me . but he did call me. but the annoying thang was, when he started to WANNA call me, my idiot credit runs low. and now ive to depend on airport free local calls public fone and my house phone. at least there's something .im glad that gorilla bought this lappy. wee ~
today, ouh i mean yesterday, went out to geylang with callow's mom. i tried to lie but i simply cant. maybe i was born to be honest. thats good. i think god knows ive too much sins so, he finally try to make myself less sin. bahaha ! i told boyfriend im going out with aunty from my workplace , so actually i was telling him 80% the truth and 20% lie. actually thats not bad at all. well he make me feel very very very bad. going geylang and with aunty was the truth only the part when i said she's my' one of the work fren ' that was a lie. but he knew i was lying. but so what? its not that im cheating on him . right? i dont see whats the wrong thing going out with your ex-mom . anyway he's in jail. so????? mcm wtf kan. ouh whatever. callow's mom bought me baju raya . since she knew i havent yet got my pay and raya's coming another 4 or 3 days. damn! that was fast! good good good. after this new year then , my birthday , ouhmy! gosh ! i forgot im turning 20 not 12 ! okay now im freaking out.! oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnooooooooo!!!!!!!
ouhkay i better get to sleep . before i work with my eyes half opened. like i always did. bahahaha.
toodles!