Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Am not that imaginary slut which was playing in your mind.
Well this stupid idiot got away from his first report bail. postpone tilll 22th dec 2011.
so now we got plenty more time with each other, but problems occur every now and then .
i took few days off from work just before his first report bail, after my leaves done of course i have to come back to work right? well, this fella here doesnt like me working , cause of his insecurities took place in his brain. i dont mind , at first but after few days, it was really shocking how he changed drastically . he started to sent me off to work and fetch me from work regularly.
and the most devastating thing was even my break time he came, actually before that he's at the airport. At first i was glad that he has the heart to come by and be a good boyfriend. BUT, one point of time, he keep accusing me of taking drugs. i he was really very sure that i took. like hello mr? i told him many times if you do not trust me bring me to check my urine and dont let me laugh out loud at your face and say i told you so, when the result come out. But he refuse to and he continues on accusing me. Second, he start assuming me having a scandal at work. like wtf?=.=. Ive been working almost 1 year 4 months and never in these years , i intend to look for a guy at work. i came work for money . thats all . you can ask all the guys working there if you dont believe me. Thirdly EVERYTHING that i do now seems so wrong to his eyes. Like for example, answering his phonecalls in the elevator which obviously no reception and he thought i mute his call because there's a guy with me. =.=, answering what and ok when he mumbles on the phone when i can hardly understand what he says, he would scold me vulgarities non-stop hit just for that. reject his calls when im busy at work , and he thought im with another guy, didnt came out from work on time was really a wrong thing, he came early to airport which i didnt ask him to and ask me to leave the office like nobody business . go break with my colleague which was my bestfriend was wrong. smoke break with colleague in the transit and not outside with him at the departure when i only have 5 mins of smoke break , he would start assuming me thousands of assumptions. going to work was wrong to him, and taking mc was wrong too. i was just trying to talk to my OE saying that im sick and i wanted to take mc which was actually because of him and he thought i was flirting with my own OE when obviously if i wanted to fake a voice i wouldnt be shouting right? and i get a hit by a phone on the eye just for taking mc. wow ! Looking at him he said was irritating, looking in the thin air he would say i took drugs . sleep at my own house he would think i wanted to meet a guy , sleeping at his house have to hear him blabbering almost all the time. i just dont understand him. when i wanted to explain he would ask me to shut up, when i kept quiet he get furious. Like wtf you want sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay that was venting an anger which was kept so long . His sleeping now and that peaceful moment of my life . still i wish all this heartache and headache ends soon. i really cant take it no more . :'((
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