Friday, January 20, 2012
someone please save me.
Time to time and im waiting for the time for me to get my life back. Im struggling real hard to endure this torture. I dont know who else to turn to. Im dying a little bit inside every second. This isnt what i wanted, and surely not what i deserve. For all this while i kept quiet just not to get beaten up by you. Each time i was hit, my heart feels the pain more than the bruises. Remind me again if i really did a mistake which i totally have no clue when i did one to you. I love you dearly and sincerely wholeheartedly and this is what i get in return? Youre confidently accused me having an affair with almost all the guys in the world. When you dont have any prove at all. Im with you now like 24hrs and you could think i might destroy your life and bring you down? You deleted all my contacts when its obviously non guys list when you, yourself contact with several girls and the only reason you gave was to find out the truth about me when i barely know who's the girl you contact with. When im outside with you, every guy that past by you said i knew them when they are absolutely strangers to me. You said i took drugs i told you gazillion times check my urine, as simple as that and the reason you didnt bring me to check my urine was because you dont want me to get caught, tell you what i rather be in jail than to be tortured this hard. I rarely meet my friends now and i dont even get to go home and see my family. You said mostly stories tht doesnt have prove and all the prove you said were people talk bout me and your "gut feeling" what bullshit is that? When i speak up for my right, you said i act stupid when youre the one who act confident catching me red-handed without any prove. What the hell am i supposed to do, you bit, threatened, swore me everytime i try to correct you. All you ever wanted to see me sad and cry every single day. Sometimes i just want to just end this sufferring life of mine. But i always think of ibu. I miss her like crazy. Wish everything would end soon.