Its 4:27 am now and im still not asleep yet . And im supposed to be awake at 12 noon. This past two days ive been waking up early as early as 7am . Can you believe that? Quite impressive i must say . Well i'll do anything for bby . Eventhough he wasnt that good behaviour for the past 7years . Im doing all this to show that im here waiting and hoping that he'll change to be a better guy . Im quite sleepy right now . My eyes are bearly open. Im just guessing where's the letter on my keypad so if did a typo , mind me. Im just typing what's in my mind . Recently visiting bby was quite tiring but i hope it will be worth it . And i did have finally got a part time job . So my everyday life now is just wake up in the morning visit bby and afternoon straight to work . Atleast i got something to do and at least i got some income for my daily expenses . This Oct bestfriends planned to have some getaway . Ask bby for permission and to my surprise he allowed me to go . I was just asking and he said ok and that just remember one thing that i have him thats all . Of course bby. Youve never left my mind not even for a sec. I promise ill be good provided if i get a new job and that job allows me to have a week leave. Im so eggsited!!!! How i wish you could come along too. Sigh. Nevertheless, im so sure im gonna save up money and once youre out , we're gonna literally enjoy ourself to the fullest before you start to work as promised .

Im so lonely and eversince the day you went away ive never stop crying when im all alone especially when its at night . I miss you so freaking much . Only God knows how truly alone and sad i am . Im gonna meet you later on and talk about your behaviour yest . im so pissed on how rude you are . Goodnight .